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Honestly I would love a Splatoon game geared at a 13+ / older audience- or even one still aimed at the same audience that really addresses the topics it brings up.
Splatoon covers darker / more mature topics. Child soldiers shooting each other, invading the land of another species for profit, suppressing another species for over a literal century, how extreme fame affects people, being ostracized / “found out” for being different, being terrified of change, etc. but it never really covers them.
They are there: especially when you look into things like the sunken scrolls or resources outside of the game, but that’s kind of it. And that’s fine!! You don’t have to address them more obviously if you don’t want to. It’s a kids game first and foremost (and even if that isn’t really a great excuse, whatever).
But I would love a game that delves more into these topics, or just getting into these characters heads more. Using outside information and reasoning stuff, we can analyze basically every character well, but we never really see any confirmation in the game for most of it. We know from the relationship chart and the squid sisters stories and whatnot that Callie willingly went to the Octarians, likely due to the pressure of fame and being on her own, but this is never really explored in the game which sucks because there’s so much potential there! Comments on how fame affects people, escapism, and Callie’s, essentially inability, to be alone (since she’s able to step back into the spotlight again once she has Marie with her, both with the squid sisters performances obv but also the news/map announcement thing). And I get that that’s not the story they were trying to tell, but it would be so nice to have a game that delves into this stuff rather than leaving it off to the side where most of the playerbase probably doesn’t know about it.
Splatoon has a really big problem with exploring character’s darker parts of them / adding complexity to characters. Take Callie again: hypnosis cannot make you do anything that you don’t want to do, so hypno Callie’s personality was still Callie, just those darker parts. And that’s just- kind of ignored, past a few one liners (deep cut’s introduction scene.) Then the same exact thing happens with Marina, except we don’t even get to delve into it as much because it is literal brainwashing or mind control or something where she very obviously has her free will taken away. Which sucks!! Because it would have been so interesting to delve into that desperation that comes with wanting things to stay the same, unintentionally hurting the people you’re trying to help / protect, all of that kind of stuff, and then it’s just shrugged off for the rest of the DLC. Which, again, it’s fine that they didn’t want to tell that story: but it’s still missed potential regarding Marina.
This even affects antagonists, too: mainly Octavio. This is kind of remedied by him helping us in Splatoon 3, but it’s never really explored. He does what he does to help his people because they are literally dying from a lack of resources + power. I like the fact that the Splatoon 1 story doesn’t address this, but it could have been really interesting to see- even just a bit of this- in Splatoon 2, especially since it’s the introduction of giving the player that mentality shift from “Inklings good Octolings bad” to “Well, it’s more complicated than that.” This one is explored in the sunken scrolls a bit, but it would be nice to get a little something more regarding Octavio’s motivations (beyond just steal the Zapfish to help his people)
I really hope that, come Splatoon 4, whichever characters it focuses on (since the inkling / octoling conflict is over at this point), it really focuses on: give us more of their flaws, that complexity, and do it in game instead of through easily ignorable twitter posts.
#Splatoon#text post#ramblings#dj octavio#callie cuttlefish#callie splatoon#marina ida#marina splatoon#this got much longer than I was expecting tbh#i’m bad at words i’m sorry#so sorry if this doesn’t make any sense lmao
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JUDGEMENT
Finally, her fourth and final card for Trespasser!!
1. The Hanged Man
2. The Chariot
3. The High Priestess
#IM FREE#my art#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#shivana lavellan#dai#lavellan#dragon age fanart#dragon age tarot#these have been a blast to make but I’m so glad to be done with them for now#da:i#thanks for all the love everyone has given this series#I’m bad with my words but just know I ❤️💞💕💗💖#thinking about making a post about the symbolism in all the cards. but I make no promises#sorry this one took so long I’ve spent the last month just staring at it#tumblr destroyed the quality#yet again :(#I wanted her armor to look like it was becoming part of her skin#lots of thoughts about knight enchanters/arcane warriors as living weapons#also dragon scales bc she drank from the well of sorrows#also if you missed it I edited her last card#she keeps her vallaslin now :)#art
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Sometimes I remember they lived through the 90’s which also means boybands
#Drarry#I’ll write out my headcanons behind this comic in another posts it’s many words LOL#I’m trying to find things that make me a little happy#which apparently was listening to *NSYNC which led to this idea#:( little silly doodles to try and not remember how bad things are rn lol#also sorry I just realized this post might be long and stretch the page x’))) ghgggghg I’m Socmed illiterate
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okay but what if some time after kevin leaves the nest but before jean does, kevin goes out shopping one day and he goes into this little store. he finds a dainty silver bear charm and remembers the little magnet he bought jean all those years ago. he picks out a matching silver charm bracelet and pays for it without even thinking. when he gets back to fox tower he remembers he can’t send it to jean anymore and it sits hidden in his dresser for like a year. he takes it out sometimes on his worst days when he’s incomprehensibly drunk and trying to forget about the nest and thinks about the boy he left behind. even after renee saved jean he never gave him the bracelet. it just didn’t feel right. he wanted to give jean the best possible chance of healing and knew he couldn’t heal properly if he still maintained a close connection to kevin. anyway maybe one day he’s drunk as hell but not drunk enough to forget jean’s current address. he ships the bracelet to him and he knows jean would know who it was from but he never got a message about it from jean. he wasn’t expecting to anyway. after that it becomes easy for him to fall back into a familiar habit. ik the foxes don’t stay long for away games but when they do kevin always manages to find another charm for jean. even when he’s in palmetto and walks across the store he got the first charm at, he always goes in just to see if there’s anything jean would like. he ships out every single one of them now. jean still never acknowledges it and kevin doesn’t stop. when kevin comes to california he notices jean’s wrists are bare but its okay because he never expected jean to wear it. he wasn’t even sure if jean kept any of his gifts. of course, jean kept all of them though. he carefully clasped every new charm to the bracelet. traced the grooves and engravings in each charm with his fingertips. he keeps it underneath his pillow and reaches for it during his bad nights. even after everything just the reminder that kevin cares is still a comfort to him.
#guys i’m sorry i’m rlly bad at putting my thoughts to words#aftg#all for the game#the sunshine court#jean moreau#kevin day#nora pls let them be friends 😭😭#kevjean
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Touya responding with “Oh really? My condolences. Giving me all your attention after everything’s over is easy, you coward.” when Enji said that “The Hero Endeavor has burned to death” it’s just so satisfying. Like— GO. OFF. YOU ABSOLUTE KING.
He will never not be a menace for this guy and I love Touya so fucking much for that 🤧💜
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha dabi#mha dabi#bnha 426#mha 426#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#fuck endeavor#whenever i think i can’t love him any more than i already do… this man just proves me the contrary#him and natsuo ending endeavor like that was just SO. DAMN. RIGHT.#and btw this to me just proves that touya will live. he is just too good not to i’m sorry (not really) to the ones that thought he won’t 🥰#PLEASE I CAN’T STOP SMILE GIGGLING AND KICK MY FEET BECAUSE OF THE WAY HE ONCE AGAIN DESTROYED ENJI ONLY WITH WORDS#THIS MAN IS SO POWERFUL I AM SOBBING SO BAD
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Kotlc au where Marella joins the neverseen because of pyrokinetics and stuff. And Sophie’s all like “you betrayed me” and Marella’s like “you betrayed me first”. And YES its unrequited one-sided Sophella because I love tragic romance
#Sorry if this sounds weird I’m really bad at putting my thoughts into words#kotlc#kotlc fandom#sophella
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Something I think about a whole bunch is how in Nocturne, the event that first really tells us how Toya and Harumichi’s relationship is, Toya mentions how classically trained musicians find it hard to switch to other music genres, such as jazz, due to how jazz relies a lot of improvisation and freedom of expression whereas classical is meant to be followed very strictly, and playing the songs exactly how the composer intended.
Obviously during this event, he confronts his dad, and the arguments at home die down more, however, as we know from Concerto, the guilt of running away from classical still eats away at him.
During the event he is able to talk with his dad and not only remember how many good memories he has from his past alongside the bad, but he is somewhat relieved of that guilt by being reminded that him running doesn’t have to define his past. Being told this allows him to finally make a song he deems worthy for VBS to sing during RAD BLAST.
So for the Concerto comm to be a more jazzy song, it makes the whole event feel so much more impactful. The song itself shows us just how far Toya has come in his development and his growth from when he used to do classical, and how he was able to break through that “classical mindset” he mentions during Nocturne.
If you think about it like that, RAD DOGS having piano and violin in its instrumental feels more impactful too (to me at least). From repurposing those instruments for a song closer to one’s VBS would sing to being able to break into the genre he once thought to be too difficult.
#now he’s getting 1 mil+ views for his songs online like that’s so cool#toya aoyagi you are so cool#sorry if this was Word Centeral I’m not good with making posts like this#it’s just been on my mind a lot recently and wanted to try#toya aoyagi#aoyagi toya#touya aoyagi#aoyagi touya#project sekai#vivid bad squad
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i love how fujimoto shows how pathetic yoru is throughout the manga - she goes from being weak, to slowly gaining her power back (which we see throughout part 2) and then she’s rendered defenceless in the ageing devils world where she seemingly can’t do anything other than wait to turn into a tree.
then she takes out her anger onto denji through violence and then after he starts crying she decided to kiss him - she’s flushed (from anger I assume) and her decision to kiss denji could be a mix of her own/Asa’s feelings towards him but also as a way to control something in this scenario where otherwise she has NO control. she no longer has her powers, she is weakened so she takes control by using denji.
the trees also previously being people who were turned into trees was also crazy - it creates such a feeling of helplessness where you can’t escape so all you can do is wait for your mind and soul to become one with nature & even despite being a devil (THE war devil - one of the four horsemen) for now there is nothing that can be done to escape (I really like this concept actually twirling my hair around my finger)
the way fujimoto illustrates the people-turned-trees is so beautiful in a way yet also horrifying. the idea of it is terrifying but the process of succumbing to nature to return to the real world is beautiful in a way im not explaining this well lmao
denji. DENJI. I’m so devastated everytime I read a new chapter I go “fujimoto won’t make Denji’s life worse this time will he??” AND HE DOES (agony)
anyway. denji crying and apologising because he believes every bad thing that happens to the people around him is HIS fault and hates that. fujimoto I need a WORD. denji deciding that he will stay in the ageing devils world and become a tree as a punishment for his actions is actually gonna make me explode I can’t do this
#yapping#csm 181#chainsaw man#r we making it out of this one boys#sorry if shit is worded weird I’m so bad at being comprehensible#denji#denji hayakawa#yoru#asa mitaka
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[ID: A digital illustration of Sissel from Ghost Trick. He is shown from a lower angle, as if the viewer were looking up at him. He has a hand close to the viewer and clutching a glowing soul core. His other hand is in his pocket, and he has a serious expression on his face. The background is the clock that appears when you time travel in the game, consisting of a glowing red clock face and glowing red lines radiating from it on a black background. The art style mimics that of the game’s, with sharp black lines and shading. The color palette is mostly red, with some light blue radiating from the soul. The artist’s signature “sunnfish 2023” is written on his leg. /End ID]
Change your fate.
#sunnfish.png#my art#procreate#described#ignore me drawing in a thousand different styles lately.#i simply do what the brain images tell me#anyways. hiiiiiii play ghost trick. now#also if you havent played the game dont read the tags from now on. im warning you#blah#blah blah blah#ghost trick#dont read further#blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah#blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#spoilers be here#not super bad but I think it’d ruin your experience#okay not ruin. but it might ruin the twist a little. there should be a less extreme word for ruin#final warning#sissel#yomiel#hell of a time writing the description. not sure of the etiquette of spoilery character names#blocking off the end now just in case. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah#blah blah blah blah blah blah#blah blah blah blah blah#blah blah#lalallal la la la la dee da la la lalala#sorry I’m really cautious .. I simply think the blind experience was so good and I don’t wanna risk anything yknow#okay bye. peace and love on planet ghost trick#ghost trick phantom detective
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So you’re in college and you work at a bar where you’re a performer and you have like 18000 side hustles to make money so that you can save up to go to a music festival and also so that you can help out your mom and one day you see a guy (who you got into a scuffle with before in the bathroom) and he’s absolutely wasted so you take him home so he doesn’t get himself or anyone else killed and then y’all start hanging out a bit and end up having a one night stand and now this guy just keeps inserting himself into your life but you actually like it and you’re starting to like him to and you spend your entire birthday with him AND THEN you find out that he’s been in love with his best friend for like. Years. And also said best friend is dating the guy who stole your ex. So now you’re just pissed off and you remember the sex tape your roommate has of the aforementioned ex stealer so you come up with this whole scheme to get it onto your phone so that you can give it to the guy you have a crush on so that he can give it to the guy he has a crush on and you can ruin the ex stealer’s life. This whole thing leads to a massive blow up and you being called a whore by the guy you like and then he drives off but he’s drunk and you unfortunately care about his wellbeing so you go after him and he gets into a car crash so you take him to the hospital and you take care of him and for a moment you’re actually happy but then you see him dancing all romantically with the best friend that he’s in love with. Also you keep getting cockblocked. It is not your day your week your month or your year
#sand and the terrible horrible no good very bad….. few months??? I think???#oh well have this word vomit#I’m sorry it got so long#i can’t control how these things go I’m afraid#only friends#only friends the series
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Having Telestratus ideas in mind and even more reqs (ily’all pls don’t stop) but I’m currently undergoing a dilemma where I’m debating to redo my entire Pisistratus design
He appeared blonde in a dream recently once and it’s been on my mind but idk….
#yes I dream about the odyssey#WHAT ABOUT IT(im crazy)#I also want it to be known platonic tlst is very dear to me#so I’m sorry if you’re looking for some hardcore yaoi bc my feelings changes with the tides#it’s fun to explore dynamics and stuff ok….#telemachus still deserves all the kisses and hand holding#this is a warning in case I do say fuck it and redesign the lad#a lot of my ideas and stuff comes from my dreams HSVDGD… so it sticks#feel free to gimme ur hcs on him… I’d love to capture other’s visions#I’m ranting here I’ll stop but yeah#btw does the general public like Pisistratus or Peisistratus more#the ei vs ie in words always trips me up so sorry I’m lazy…#my same face syndrome is so bad I need to fix that
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I wonder if Neo’s semblance will even work as it currently does if the cat DOES get back to remnant. It’s being in the ever after that had made it so strong, so maybe leaving would bring it back to its previous state? Neo’s semblance and the ever after seem linked in how similar they are. Someone’s who’s semblance is basically their imagination and a fantastical world with the weird, wacky, and horrifying things you would only really find in your imagination and stories seem pretty linked / similar.
The cat would still be really dangerous even if Neo’s powers returned back to their previous state, but anything would help, right?
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finally sharing my very personal headcanon that the first time soap and ghost kiss, ghost’s heart rate goes up so fast he gets panicked and throws up. soap is obviously freaking out like “holy shit??!!1??!1 are you okay???!!?” and ghost looks up with a dopey smile like “yeah lets do that again”
#sorry if this is worded bad i’m really high#they’re so personal to me#cod#call of duty#cod mw#john soap mactavish#john mactavish#soap mactavish#simon ghost riley#simon riley#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#soap x ghost
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Bc i am small brained but have scrolled thru the no devotion au tag, do u have like- a timeline? Of? The events? I saw the masterpost but i mean like. A genuine timeline
I made a graphic
Idk if it makes sense, I’m usually asleep by now and I made this at the speed of sound. I just hope in makes more sense than the Star Wars legends timeline does.
My notes go forward like 3000 years I just didn’t wanna spoil my own plans too much. Also these have much more “unique” names in my notes.
There’s some small details that signify where in the timeline things are. Narinder has a cut in his ear post betrayal comic (foreshadowing) but not Narinder lacks it. The length of the lamb’s horns and the design of their cloak also signify age (but I forget that detail sometimes oops.)
Edit: mmmm I should also add that my master post is kept in chronological order. The arcs are incredibly scattered rn cause I’m making things that take place pre game and post game in tandem and out of order. But it’s all organized in the master post.
#my post#no devotion au#I can’t control the star war kid in me sorry#I’m bad at explaining things in words so you get images#shut up about star war please#i need to go to bed#ask
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kelin may i hear more about rockstar touya \(★ω★)/
I was planning to post other headcanons before going for these, BUT I’ve got some for Rockstar!Touya that are pestering my mind these days and your asks come in the right moment, so bear with me please 🤧
࣪𖤐��� ROCKSTAR!TOUYA
The first time Touya knew that he wanted to become a rockstar was in middle school, right at the age of thirteen, his influent CEO of a father was trying to mold him into a carbon copy of himself to rival Yagi Toshinori’s Enterprise. While taking a break from studies, he saw his sister watch on TV a rock concert of “Loudness” and to say Akira Takasaki is his role model is the least. That’s a true legend to him.
After “Loudness” and Akira Takasaki, he discovered “Metallica” and Kirk Hammett which made him go like “HOW??? HAVE??? I??? MISSED??? ALL??? THIS???”, scolding himself for taking so long to fall in love with the electric guitar and its sound. The next week he’s blasting full volume “The Final Countdown” by Europe inside the Todoroki Mansion like the good old stamp rock fanatic he is, getting himself scolded and grounded by Enji who is a fan of traditional Japanese music so yeah…
At one of the Todoroki family gatherings during the weekend, he was scrolling down his phone looking first of all where to take guitar lessons and second for a guitar to buy, but he knew his father would never agree to get him one. That’s when his grandfather, peeking at his grandson’s phone, butted in and asked Touya if he’s interested in music. He wasn’t sure if it was a good thing to answer that question, since he’s the father of his father, but he did and hell has it been the best thing he did!
On his fourteenth birthday, Enji’s father bought Touya his very first electric guitar, a good old Fender Stratocaster CUSTOM MADE for him. It’s snow white like his hair and has a his name engraved on the bottom left side of the guitar, while on the other side there were engraved tiger’s fangs, all in turquoise… The color of his eyes. And this has been by far Touya’s best birthday ever.
After finishing Middle School he choose to attend an Art School, taking the music classes as main classes of course; he may or not have done it to piss off and raise Enji’s blood pressure from how mad he got for choosing something different from Finances and Management. Oh his father was livid and Touya was so proud of himself for that.
He has formed a rock band, of which he’s the guitarist and vocalist, with Tenko Shimura (Bassist&Vocalist) and Shuichi Iguchi (Drummer) called “The Villains”… Are we even surprised about this name? Really? Because I am not. Tenko suggested, Iguchi supported strongly and Touya just went with it because complaining and thinking about another name was “Too much effort”. He likes it a lot but will never admit it.
At the age of nineteen, Touya owns a Fender Stratocaster (Custom Made), an Elite Stratocaster, an ST-83-80 Japan (1983) black, Lone Star Strat, IC350 black, IC50 black, ICHI00 white, Gibson SG Standard mahogany and a Jackson Pro Series DK Modern HT6 MS. He also owns four acoustic guitars for songwriting, like a Martin GPC-X1E, Martin 000-28 Modern Deluxe, Taylor GS Mini-e Rosewood SN LTD and a Taylor AD22e. Did he pay all them with Enji’s credit card? Hell yeah. Did he do it out of spite? Absolutely. Did he care about his father’s blood pressure rising even more? Not even remotely.
His favorite groups are Loudness, Metallica, Led Zeppelin, AC/DC, Europe, Scorpions, Slipknot, Three Days Grace, Green Day, Skillet, Linkin Park, The Rasmus, L’Arc-En-Ciel, UVERworld, Nirvana, Guns N’ Roses and Evanescence to list some, because there are many more he adores honestly. He isn’t a picky ear as long as the song gives him chills and inspires him, being someone who’s driven by emotions that’s what makes him likes something he hears.
Atsuhiro is their homeroom teacher, at the Art University they attend, who introduces them to Giran, a friend of his, who has an agency for new talents and after they sent him six of their songs wants to launch their very first album by August to make them debut at the “Rock In Japan Fes.”
Touya, being the emotional driven type of musician, is the one put to write the lyrics for the band’s songs and most of the times are hits, especially because his and Tenko’s voice brings to life the emotions of the lyrics in a way that it reaches the listeners right into the heart and soul.
You will never catch Touya’s fingers empty, there’s always rings decorating them and some rings are even custom made by his cousin Geten, who owns a Jewelry shop that he promotes a lot on his social media. One of his most precious rings is the one that he got made for him, with his birthstone carved in it, when he turned eighteen.
He has three earrings on his right ear: an helix, mid helix, conch and low helix. Four on his left one: two helix, a low helix and one on the lobe, plus three nostril piercings on the right side of his nose.
After “The Villains” debuts and proving his father that he could succeed through music without his help nor his name, Touya owns now a black card that he lets Fuyumi and Shoto use to their heart content.
Last, but not least, be ready to be the muse of Touya’s songs the instant he falls head over heels for you. The moment it happens everything, and I mean everything, to him becomes about you driving Tenko and Iguchi to pure exasperation.
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha headcanons#mha headcanons#dabi headcanons#touya todoroki headcanons#bnha x reader headcanons#mha x reader headcanons#dabi x reader headcanons#touya todoroki x reader headcanons#— ❥ kelanswers;#rockstar!touya#answered#nohoneeeeeyy#BUT that post i reblogged from you and your ask just made me give in in a matter of SECONDS 😭#i had these there ready in my notes because i was planning to post them after other headcanons i have ready#if you guys have any more questions about rockstar!touya just drop in what you’re curious about#the askbox is not open BUT these days i’m like rockstar!touya brainrot so yeah…#also yeah… i made todoroki grandpa a good grandpa because someone who d words to save a kid to me can’t be a bad person…#sorry guys i’m very simple minded i guess 🥲
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oooohhh liminal spaces my beloved,,,,
I would LOVE to see you write number 3 (moving out and checking your now bare rooms if you left anything, either it be materials or memories) with Steddie!
klausi! 🥰🤍 thank you for indulging me, beloved! this got a little too introspective and too projecting but oh well
no. 3 — when you're moving out of a house and checking your room when it's almost or completely empty and sorted out
It takes him a while to realise what that feeling is that overcomes him; what to call that weight that’s been so firmly lodged inside his chest that he feels like his steps and movements have actually slowed down lately.
A lump in his throat and a heaviness in his bones is not necessarily new in this house, not a new sensation to feel within these walls, reinforced day by day, morning by morning, night by awful night.
But now, seeing it like this, there is a new emotion. A new heaviness. And Steve takes it all in as he lets his gaze roam over the empty floor, still dirty and dusty because he hasn’t the strength or the energy to clean it all again. He takes in the walls, splotched with light and shadow and the echo of pictures and posters that hung there for years, leaving behind only a trace of their shape on the wallpaper, untouched by sunlight for years.
They’re spectres of who Steve used to be. Spectres of versions of him — genuine and pretend alike.
He stares at the spot where a picture frame hung for as long as he can remember, just a tad off centre from the plaid wallpaper in a way that never ceased to make Robin complain.
He wonders, staring still, if he will hang up the picture frame again in his new place. If it will be off centre again, just for Robin. Just for a reason to smile. If he will keep that version of him, or if it will stay behind as a spectre within these walls, too.
One last victim for them. One last thing for them to take.
It’s a silly thought. Dramatic, really.
Just as dramatic as Robin, who refused to come upstairs with jim again for one last check, claiming If I go upstairs with you again and have to deal with your melancholy face, Steven, I will actually burn this place to the ground.
She’d flicked her Zippo at him in a way that was almost cool, and it almost made him tear up right then and there.
He will hang up that frame again. Maybe replace the picture, take one of Robin with her Zippo, put it right above the front door, just a little to the left.
Steve‘s eyes begin to sting as he tries to take a deep breath, tries not to give the awful wallpaper its old power back, tries not to feel so small. So big. So displaced.
His knees buckle at the same time as his resolve does, and he sits down on the floor, the plush carpet a familiar sensation against his palm.
He hates this room. He’s going to miss it so much. It was his prison. It was his sanctuary. It was never his, and yet he hates the idea of it becoming someone else’s. Nothing good happened between these walls. Every happy memory he has are linked to them. He is a stranger to this room. It knows his every secret.
He wants to burn this place to the ground and leave and never return. He wants to sit here forever and watch the discolouration deepen.
He wants this place to be his home. And yet he knows it never will be. He doesn’t know if he can make a home.
A tear runs down his face, and he doesn’t know why. Maybe it’s relief. Maybe it’s regret. Maybe it’s grief, or overwhelm; or maybe it’s all of them and more.
There is a knock, gentle and careful, sounding against the door frame. It has never been tapped like that. Will it know such gentleness again?
“There you are,” Eddie says, lingering behind Steve, his steps not approaching. Not encroaching upon Steve and his heavy little moment.
He wipes at his face and turns around, flashing what must be a pathetic rendition of a smile.
“Yeah, I’m here, just…” He clears his throat. “Just checking, y’know?”
Eddie smiles, kind and patient, like he sees right through him. “Checking and getting stuck, hm? Happens to me all the time.”
Steve shrugs.
“Can I come in?”
“Sure. I’m done anyway.”
Eddie hums, murmuring something that sounds a lot like No, you’re not. And Steve sags into Eddie as soon as he comes to a stop beside him, leaning against his leg and feeling the soft fabric of Eddie’s worn denim against his cheek. Like this, his head is at the perfect height for Eddie to run his fingers through his hair.
“You wanna talk about it? Or just sit in silence ‘til getting up is an option again?”
Steve doesn’t say anything, too focused on feeling all these things that the emptiness of his childhood bedroom makes him feel. All that fear, all that relief, all that anxiety and the nervousness and the excitement and the freedom and the yearning. For a home.
For picture frames off centre, for candles and fairy lights not just around Christmastime, for dinner with friends and finding that you don’t have enough dishes yet for everyone and then just eating stew out of a mug when all the bowls are gone already. Late night dancing and conversations and singing not just in the shower, arranging and rearranging a room until it’s just right and realising that a year or two has passed already and you’ve still not changed the makeshift lightbulbs in the hallway.
He wants a home. And he wants to make it, to create it, to build it from nothing but hope, love, and just enough craziness to not give up after the first failed attempt.
“Hey,” Eddie says at some point, and Steve didn’t realise there are more tears now until Eddie’s wiping them from his face, the warmth against Steve’s cheek gone now; replaced by the sleeves of Eddie’s hoodie. “It’s okay, I’ve got you.”
And he does. Steve falls forward now, into Eddie’s arms, and clings to him.
“I wanna make a home.”
“You’re gonna make a home, sweet thing.”
“But what if I can’t? What if it’s always gonna be like this?” Steve pulls back, wiping at his face, looking at Eddie now, whose hands are now in Steve’s lap, keeping him so, so warm. “So full of… nothingness and regret and just. Just empty.”
Eddie smiles and leans forward, his nose almost touching Steve’s. “You’re the least empty person I know, Stevie. You’re moving in with Robbie! That place is gonna be a home the moment you two set foot in it. And then we’re gonna paint your walls, we’re gonna go to the hardware store seven times a day because you two suck at decision making, but it’s okay, because it’s a process. And you’re gonna be so, so good at it. And you’re gonna have a home, okay? You’re gonna make it. Build it. Create it. And you get to start over and over and over until it’s right.”
Eddie’s hands have found their way into Steve’s hair again, lightly scratching at his scalp in soothing circles.
“And you know what’s best about homes?”
Steve shakes his head, hanging on Eddie’s lips and his words and all of his warmth.
“They’re a community effort. Meaning you have us to help you. You ain’t gotta do it alone. Robbie and I are gonna build your home just as much as you will, yeah? And we’re gonna be so annoying about it.” He ends his little speech with a manic little grin that never fails to get a laugh out of Steve, even if this one’s a little watery.
He breathes a little, and sighs at last, the tears finally stopping. “Do you really mean that?”
“What that I’m gonna be so annoying?”
“No, that one I know,” Steve grins, and Eddie cackles at that, leaning in to kiss him on the nose. “No, I mean… Do you really think I can do this?”
Eddie’s expression sobers into something more genuine. “I do. If there’s anyone who can make a home, it’s my boy Steve fucking Harrington. And do you wanna know why?”
He nods.
“Because you’re my home.”
The smile he gives Eddie before closing the gap between them for a proper kiss is one that these walls have never seen before.
The afternoon sun comes streaming in through the windows one last time just as Steve gets up, pulled into Eddie’s arms. It leaves the room tinged in gold for Steve one last time.
It’s goodbye. It’s farewell. It’s Steve, moving on.
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#steddie fic#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#liminal steddie#dio words#i had a bad day. i’m scared i can’t make a home on my own. have some projections#it’s been a while since i wrote anything my head is too full sorry guys :(#dio’s steddie ramblings
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